I have tried to write three different posts for today.
One about how reading fanfic helped me realize I was trans — specifically Good Omens fanfic. One about my gender spectrum journal notes. One about the irony of writing about being trans on Substack as Substack is actually Not Great when it comes to supporting trans writers.*
And I think all of that is very queer of me.
Because being queer is fun — it’s about exploring and asking questions and challenge the status quo. But it can also come with a fuckton of Imposter Syndrome.
I kept thinking as I wrote those previous drafts, “what if other queer people think I’m not actually queer and am just making fun of queer people?” or “what if other queer people think I’m the worst kind of queer?” or “what if I don’t actually know what queer is and I’m just lying to myself?”
So today, I’m leaning into the Imposter Syndrome. And letting you know that I Know Nothing and that honestly, that is still very queer of me.
*Note: I have been debating how to move my Substack elsewhere AND my brain has too much going on right now that I literally do not have the spoons to make the move yet. But I’ll let y’all know.
it's been my experience that people who are worried they aren't queer enough and might be upsetting Real Queer People are not, in fact, faking it. you are you and one of the things you are is queer, and you've been queer this whole time you just hadn't discovered it yet.
You are queer enough♥️. And my big “ohhhhh, I might be trans in a different way than I thought I was” was while reading a monster fucker romance lol 💕