Hello dear hearts,
I hope y’all like the new look. I've been really wanting to make it a little more “blog” like. Please let me know if this is un-readable or it hurts too much. I can go back to the default colors.
Speaking of blog, still not sure what to do with mine. But I gave it a new look too. I’m really just trying out a lot of things this Mercury Retrograde. Not getting attached to it, but just a little playtime I think.
How has y’all’s Mercury Retrograde been so far?
This Week
Sent my first submission to Luna Luna Magazine
Wrote this book review on my latest five star read - A Taste of Gold and Iron
Wrote this flash fic on my blog - the first of a multi fic series
Had a brilliant therapy session
Cried a lot
Started reading two new books, which brings my currently reading to six
Some Unfiltered Feelings For Today
I feel like I haven’t accomplished much this week. Even looking at the above list and looking at my weekly “Ta-Done” list’s jam packed days, it feels like I am so far removed from it all. To be fair, currently experiencing a lot of anxiety, anticipation of my sister’s surgery that I am unable to be there for, the beginning of a PMDD cycle, and other “normal” mental health blocks. But still.
I am also experiencing a fair amount of pain. My back is essentially one lump of knotted muscle, my left knee (the one I banged against a glass table a few weeks ago) is starting to give me issues while going down the stairs, my right thumb might be jammed but at the very least bruised and sore, and then of course my hips hurt when I sit, stand, or lay in bed.
I’m really feel all the chronic shit this week I guess, and I’m not thrilled about it. Not that folks are thrilled about their chronic issues in general. But I feel like such a baby when I’m hurt and struggling - thanks childhood trauma.
Currently trying to decide if I have the energy to do laundry today, it’s just one load, but it requires too many steps. Also I need to eat something. I’ve heard that coffee doesn’t count as breakfast, although I’m still suspicious about that. But that requires me to make the food.
Holy moly now I’m feeling worse after listing out the things I “need” to do today. Why did I do this to myself?
Please tell me some good things or made up good things. Distractions are welcome, dear hearts.
Until next time,
-A
Today's good so far. I've been able to read some, and I just made coffee
Went out for pho, treated myself to some leather cuff bracelets to help my anxiety (a throwback tool from high school I only remembered recently), and got to spend some quality time with a couple of friends. I feel like the transition into fall, as much as I love it, always short-circuits my mental health a little bit😅 Hope tomorrow turns out better for you🖤