More of the Same, But Different

Ten Things

Photo by Rachel Son on Unsplash

1. Watching two chipmunks chase each other in front of my camper and I’m pretty sure those two are the ones who like to hop on my roof and startle me awake several times in the wee hours of the morning.

2. I forgot to put sour candy on my grocery list, damn it.

3. One of my favorite things about myself is that I have brought “lolsob” into my Michigan family lexicon and it makes me giddy when others use it in our group chats.

4. A question I’m asking myself: what is difference between daydreaming and maladaptive daydreaming? How do I know when it starts off as one and tips into the other? And how maladaptive is maladaptive dreaming really — or is this another case of neurotypicals trying to make neurodivergent folks “normal”?

5. Yesterday my domain and Wordpress site expired and it’s a weird relief. I couldn’t figure out what to do with that space. And let’s be real. I barely can figure out what to do with this space, so maybe I will figure this one out now?

6. Spotify coming in hard with all my new K-pop daylists and I’m not mad about it.

7. There is a certain kind of heartbreak that happens when you try to share your experiences, your life updates, your new symptoms or difficulties — especially as a queer, neurodivergent, chronically ill person — and it’s met with silence or judgement or upset because you aren’t the same person.

8. I have broken my reading slump! Or rather the premonition by banana yoshimoto has broken my reading slump. One of my loved ones borrowed it from the library and they let me borrow it after. They also wrote a review here.

9. The uncertainty is getting to me. Yay for therapy next week.

10. I keep looking to my right when I am at my desk because I normally have a calendar, but for several reasons didn’t buy a calendar for this year. So I’m just vibin’ the days of the year. And my vibin’ I do mean forgetting. Lolsob.