All the Chaos, All of the Time
AKA Ten Things
One day I will remember to send my grocery list to my Texas family BEFORE I visit. I was tossing and turning all night because my stomach is rebelling against all of the fast food I ate since arriving Friday afternoon.
Homemade Pumpkin Spice Mocha in my stepdad’s Jack Skellington mug + Halloween Café Ambience on YouTube. I’m going to pretend it’s not summer today.
Once again daydreaming of living in a country that understands what it means to separate church and state. Because America isn’t it.
My almost two year old nibling calls me “T” or “E”. Because that’s how she shortens Auntie. It’s so cute. And then when my older niblings are feeling silly they call me “Ant”. I love these kids.
Trying to focus on the happy, the joy, the good moments. Even though I will be replaying the hurt, the sadness, the unexpected moments at a later time. Just means I need more boundaries, different boundaries. *sigh*
Have I mentioned that three of my four niblings have double ear infections? Lolsob. And my sister is developing one too. I hate ear infections so much because there is nothing you can really do. Just wait it out and take antibiotics.
When the living room ambiance becomes too loud and you can’t hear your café ambiance.
Only 86 degrees Fahrenheit right now. Woo. Our high today is 100 of course.
Really missing quiet mornings.
Not going to lie folks, I don’t like this letter. I wanted to write something about my writing updates, I wanted to write something about creativity. But this letter is where I am right now. Chaos, lack of structure, moving from one thing to the next, surviving one tantrum to the next.
I think I need to buy my mom some rugs to absorb the sounds in this house. It’s too much. *sigh* And I forgot my headphones yet again.
Until next time, dear hearts