Hello dear hearts
I feel like I could write for the next few weeks about processing my current grief, the loss of family, but honestly, today I’m just tired of it all. I’m tired of processing, I’m tired of trying to find lessons and feeling through all of the feelings.
So let’s do a non-sensical random list of ten things.
The Bletchley Circle series is wonderful and I’m so sad it’s only seven episodes. It’s about four women who were code breakers during World War II and it’s set about a decade after, I believe. They solve murders together using their skills they developed during their code breaking era. I have a crush on both Millie and Lucy. Also, hoping they get together in season two.
I’ve been working on developing a pen name but think I may have accidently found my New Name entirely. Unsure, but will update if that changes. For now, Ash and Ashley are fine.
Really need to do something with my hair. It’s driving me fucking bonkers.
My oldest niefling is obsessed with ghost stories and urban legends. The other day she also told me she wished we could have Spooky Valentines, Spooky St. Patrick’s Day, and that is should be Spooky season all year ‘round. She takes after me so much and my sister finds it baffling at times.
Turning Red is so fucking amazing and I cried so hard at the end. Encanto is up next.
Mildly frustrated that my therapist hasn’t checked in with me, but also can’t remember if I asked her to or if I told her I would be the one to reach out. Ugh. Why is therapy so hard?
The StoryGraph has Dark Mode now!
Evening coffee just hits different. It even tastes different. Speaking of coffee, pretty sure my brother-in-law will need to buy more this weekend. We both have been drinking all day long this week. Ooops.
Craving a large Dr. Pepper and French fries from McDonald’s. But also breadsticks and alfredo sauce from Olive Garden. Flautas and queso from On the Border. But alas.
You know that meme that says do I need a tattoo, a drink, a haircut, etc.? I need it all, thank you.
Until next time,
-A
Would love to see y’all celebrate those holidays with spoopy things. Little black hearts that say “you make my gloomy heart shine,” and four leaf clovers to keep the wee folk away, etm.
Oh yeah, I also need a drink and a haircut and a tattoo. Fuck yeah.